dearest blog.. it has been a long long time ever since i last blogged.


just some updates. :)


well, how do i begin.......

in fact, you know the reason why i m blogging right? cuz i m stress. time of the month again, 4 more days to go and i m still hovering at that 30k range. oh pls tell me, how can i squeeze that additional 20k? from where will they come from?

actually, at times i really wonder. do i really like my job? do i really get any job satisfaction from here? the truth is that, i m really stress most of the time. let me try and explain why..

you see, i have deadlines everyday (i know most of u guys out there have to face the same thing too). but, deadlines is not the worst of all. it is actually sales target which is scaring the hell of me. can u imagine being assess every month on your performance based on your sales? arghhh .. seriously the thought of this just turns me off totally.

even when i m on MC, i have to listen to calls afraid that it might be something urgent or a potential business or even a big problem to settle. i can't even shut my eyes for a good 15 mins. seriously, that is very scary. This same shit can happen when i m on leave, when i m planning for some trips out with my family or even with friends. Back again, to counter this negative thought, this job indeed does give me good flexibility. I can even wake up at 8 or even 9 plus at times. and even reach home at 6.

next thing, i just can't imagine the thought of having scolded everyday. having the fear of each call that comes to u will be a complain case. scoldings from customer, scoldings from bosses, scoldings from fellow colleagues. arghhhhh. Back again, the plus point is that u get the commission (if u can hit the targets). commission at times can be double that of ur monthly pay. wow! sounds good right. guess what? i have only hit the lowest tier of my commission ONCE so far (out of the 7 mths i m here). how pathetic!

next next thing, i can't imagine having to wear heels and be out in the sun and even at times trying to get some poor shelter from that damn pathetic umbrella. it can be very ke lian okay! at times, i wish that i have 3 hands. one for my bag, one for my laptop and1 for holding umbrella. at times, i seriously do look like some poor little girl trying her very best to leave home. back again, the positive thing here is that i can travel all ard. in these 7 mths, i m certain to say that i m definitely more familiar with singapore. all the way from changi industrial park, to ubi, to tuas to hougang.... u name it, i been there. next time, u need a street directory, just call 81333382. u get free directories and u get to hear a sweet voice. but make sure, u dun call on a rainy day.

life is as such. u complain and u endure. most prob to a point when u can't take it anymore, u give up. when u look back, are u going to ever regret on this chosen path.

they say first job is tough. i say first job and u try to do sales is SIAO. don't try unless u are so sure u have super strong beliefs and determination.

bad news to share: i m tired. super duper tired. not sure how long more i can hang onto.

good news to share: i closed a deal worth $230K. a one year contract with monthly billing.

maybe this job is not that bad afterall. to think that i can still think of a positive point to counter every rejections i face.

*looking forward to travelling again.